Suffering: I feel the blood flow through my vein I feel the pulsing in my brain I feel my heart fading at every beat I feel my body lose its heat I feel my insides burning up I watch my hopes from a cup I look and see it’s what I fear I finally see my pain and despair I have my own easy way out I no longer have to pout This is how it all ends The knife cuts…as my vision bends Illusion: Loving you is like a mirage So hard to get past the barrage My love is like heavy armor But I put it down because you’re a charmer As I let my guard fall I feel a pain and start to bawl Has it been that I was deceived Our friendship was misconceived The way that I cared for you I feel so empty and so weak I am falling off my peak My mountain has become a hill Because my heart has fallen ill I am beyond repair By anyone that is not my dear I think that I am slowly fading I see you acting, masquerading Do you not care for me as I am? Or was I naïve as a lamb? Empty Thoughts: I wonder if I should just take a pill Do I dare end it now If I choose then where and how If I do it quick and easy Would that be enough to please me Should I do it slow and sad Or would that make my love go mad I sued to have everyone despise Because I gazed into your wonderful eyes They want what I have but still can’t claim You suddenly don’t act the same I keep my love for you But how is it that only I am true You flail from one side to another You keep caution like a mother You never understand what I feel It’s as if my heart is your meal You swallow it whole in a bite You make my chest feel all tight Recovering: I feel as if my insides have been drained As if my heart no longer remained I still don’t want to give up I will be as perky as a pup The pain, I have had enough But even love is too rough Should I end everything now But I can’t just stop and blow I mustn’t back down at any time Even if a life is sour as a lime