Those are a few of my favorite little impromptu moments that i actually write down. They are meaningful and bring back memories along with many emotions. Respect them, and let them teach you.

EMAIL.
he sent me an email, but there was no feeling.
he walked by and he didnt say hi.
this all came so fast, it swept me off my feet.
but it left just the same, by surprise.

please nurse me to my senses.
i fail to see how i drop from so high.
is it just me and my paranoia,
or is it him, not willing to try?

the way things work.
I have it but dont want it.
I need it; its not there.
I fought my way, i sought it.
thought it over, and now don't even care.

i play the game as long as its a challenge.
when level's easy, then i tend to leave.
but when himself, he lets me down.
god, i feel so decieved.

i dont feel bad when hurt others, pity no one.
all is fair in love and war,
but when he talks to me like that it makes me want to curl up.
it makes me want to hurt myself some more.

i never wanted to get attached again.
a silly thing goes here and there.
i see, i smell, i feel i hear it coming.
and now whats left, is stupid fear.

i see him near me, a cheap thrill in stomach.
an ache a bruise a sprain is better off.
i claim him, make him mine.. i mark him down.
now, no one touches him or im at war.

pablo, how could i do this once again.
another guy, easy come and easy go.
why do i fall for such perfect strangers.
one thing for sure, i never felt like this before.

i had it all the same, that one same moment,
but this time is different , have i maybe matured?
or have i lost my head completely off my bouldered shoulders?
what do i do, please tell me what to do?


and if you read this now, i am truly sorry.
if you are pablo, then dont talk to me again.
i will be scared to look into your mysterious eyes.
i will not hurt anymore people, i promise you

my reader...
i promise you, i will stop the pain.