it just how i am inside.

Last Breath
Curled up screaming, crying
In the corner of a room
I’m afraid I might be dying
Without saying “bye” to you
Muddy sounding voices say
That I’ll never see again
I hadn’t seen the light of day
For too long, is what they said
My voice is going hoa**e and dry
From calling out your name
Now I can barely manage sighs
Sounding distorted and grim
All alone in this hell whole
Shaking and scared to death
Lobotomy, please take my soul
Complications, my last breath

My Toxic
They say pick your poison
I tell them I pick you.
They tell me that there's no use
Deep down I know it's true.
So why do I keep trying?
Why do I never just give up?
When I'm well aware you're just a dream
I know you're all I want.

The non believers tell me
That I really do not know
I can't make my own choices
Time will tell me later on.
But I think Time might just lie to me,
For I find it hard to trust.
Who can I trust now anyway?
I think you're the only one.

Closing In
Did you ever notice
How it never is the same
When the one that is
Indeed the one isn't ever there
And did you even realize
That the one you knew was me,
But I didn't know where to go
To find you,
We'll never meet
And so now I sit alone in dark
Staring at the walls
That pave my room
And think non-stop about that one
The one that isn't you
And yes, I know, and hear
You call for the seconds passing by
But I refuse to hear the chant
Of the tainted lullaby
That says only words
You think that I would truly love
To hear, but really,
I just want the truth,
Though it may be dangerous to hear.
So I sit in my room
With my walls, dark and closing in
And think to myself
About that one and smile
A small weak grin
Because that little tainted lullaby
The one I shouldn't hear
It seeped on through and buried deep
Into my off guard ear
And it pains and soothes me
At the same time
For it's not the truth,
But the calming lies
That you think I want to hear.

Midnight Mantene
Do You Hear
The movie's ending
But nobody leaves
From the Midnight Matene

Wipe Their Tears
With their sleaves
Clapping silently
Mother hides Baby's eyes
So she doesnt see
The final fatal gunshot
Through the hero's heart
But Baby knows
And giggles at
The crying damsel in distress
While Mother softly claps
At the Midnight Matene

The Lovers In The Corner
Get ideas in their heads
But smile at each other
Seductive smiles of the dead
And both of them know
That they'll never go home
From the Midnight Matene

In The Dark Now
Cant you see
The movie's ended
And nobody leaves
From the fatal gunshot
The Midnight Matene

Old Man Seated
In the corner
Knows he's never going back
And Mother and Baby
Turn their backs
And the two young lovers
Never even saw
The final fatal gunshot
Through the hero's heart
And how the
Damsel in destress
Who is comsumed by lonliness
Cannot even turn away
No they wont come back
Theyre here to stay
At the Midnight Matene

Child Dont You See
This is a place
You shouldnt be
Youre young innocent eyes
Seek the brighter lies
But the real truth is
That they'll never return
From The Midnight Matene