whatever moves me .. sometimes its real, sometimes a fleeting thought

For Today
I'll be happy.....
its new day, a new morning
a chance at a renewed life
how wonderful it is
to wake,and realize
that its another chance
for happiness
oh yes, the road is long
and price is great
the chance to do it right
is priceless.
today i will be thankful
today i will rejoice
and yes today, i will smile
as the storm moves in
ill take its strength
ill feel its power
ill use my abilities
to create a bond
with myself
i will use my brain
to refine my being
to stengthen my heart
ill use my body
to physically replace
the negative
and remove
the past reminders.
i will use my heart
to love
to express the emotions
i feel inside
my hands, will touch
and work to provide,
a sense of well being
my feet, will carry me
towards my goal
on this new day
on this new beginning
i will rise above the pain
i will appreciate, my worth
and i will remember
my life is a journey,
and the thrill, is the ride

Change
moonbeams and wind
a storm is moving in
i stretch my arms
towards the sky
i ask my heart
to tell me why
the storm is looming strong
i know it wont be long
my heart believes its true
a time for me and you
the rain now begins
the clouds are moving in
the wind shifts its way
how long before the day
the air holds a chill
i cannot wait until
i feel your arms around
the rain comes pouring down
the rain holds a beat
as it hits upon the street
my heartbeat fills my ears
as i try to quiet my fears
the rain so heavy
shows signs of change
snow its becomes
the heavy layer
of glistening white
now fills cold black
sky tonight
i see the shine
will you be mine
will we see
what fun our life can be
no stars to wish on now
i guess it will be
alright somehow
sparkling fluff
tells me
i must hang tough
until we see
the moment that will be
a joyous meeting
of our hearts
the day will come
and then the sun
will melt the snow again
it will warm the heart
and we will start
to share the time
till then
i will watch the snow
and bide the time
until it goes

Alone VS Lonely
alone vs lonely... the decision is yours...
A~almost lost
L~lingering memories
O~opening doors
N~new beginnings
E~evolving into a new life

L~love lost
O~one
N~negative feelings
E~empty
L~living a lie
Y~the question you ask

these reasons and more are why its better to be alone than lonely in a life filled with pain

Nobody lives Here
the smoke rises
swirling above
a home below
filled with much love
I see all the signs
of what is inside
nothing to hurt for
nothing to hide
the car in the drive
sits empty, and cold
the people are together
all happy inside
they live ,and they share
they huddle around
holding on
to the happiness found
they share a meal
a movie ,and then
they hold hands
vowing to do it again,
they smile, and they talk
sharing thier dreams
all working for
the future ,it seems.
I once saw this
in my life
a wonderful bond
oh yes, it was nice
what changed
what happened
to break this all down
a lie, a failure
a break in the bond
its over
the dream
all I worked,and lived for
the dream in my heart
doesnt live, here no more
now I'm alone
a new dream I seek
my future is empty
my future is bleak
nothing that was important
lives in my heart
nothing to hold onto
dont know ,how to start

A Silly Little Fishy Ditty
....A Bedtime Story.....

two little goldfish
swim in a fishbowl,
round and round they swim
are they looking out
or are we looking in
watch there mouths
you will learn
the secret of thier names
(bob and paula)
they continue to swim
around ,and around
following each other
never settling down
first they go left
then they swim right
all thru the day
into the night
what is the story
what do you see
if you watch closely
you will see
what it be
(oh dear, pulling at strings here!)
bob follows paula
then paula follows bob
both in hopes of finding
the fishy happiness they seek
is bob just a player
paula doesnt know
she hopes, as she follows
that that he wont go
if he jumps out of the fishbowl
lands on the floor
the chances of happiness
wont be there ,no more
when it reverses
paula swims away
bob, he does follow
all of the day
a little fish food
is left on the top
they both swim up
to see, what they got
just a tiny little sprinkle
they wish there was more
well,come back tomorrow
always something,to hope for
to long,and to seek
keeps life
from getting to bleak
bob has a secret
paula knows not
if she did
a secret its not
so she wonders and waits
for her dreams, to come true
never knowing ,for sure
if she is happy,or blue
waiting each day
for a sprinkle of joy
they meet at the top
two carp....a girl, a boy
it keeps life, a mystery
oh yes,not a bore
bob is a player
paula, his ...
(oh dear what rhymes with bore?)
the moral of the story
is simple and true
if bob is a player
what should paula do
she gives her
little fishy heart
to bob and then
she waits to see
if the story will end
will bob keep on swimming
or swiftly jump out
land on the table
then quickly dry out!!
oh dear, what a sad little end
for her, sweet carp friend !!