whatever moves me .. sometimes its real, sometimes a fleeting thought

What I Carry Inside
inside of me is a swirl of thoughts ,hopes, and dreams. a complex mixture of joy, extreme sadness, faith, and dispair.my energies flow so strong.i can soar so high,and i can plummet so low. i can feel so strong, and i can bottom out, and need comfort.i have so many wishes. world peace ,to always see beauty ,in everything, and everyone.to be able to comfort and console those in need.to love all of nature, even the creepy things. to remember ,that everything ,and everybody, has a gift to share, and to always, look beyond my pain, to see others pain, first. to know ,that nothing ,nor nobody, is perfect .whats perfection anyways? to remember, there is a time, to speak loudly ,and a time ,to speak ,with compassion.to laugh often ,and to always try ,to make others join me.laughter ,is contagious ,so its one communicable diseases ,good to spread. to always, look at mean acting people, and see the pain, in thier eyes ,that causes them ,to act out. to be wise ,but always give a liar, the benifit of doubt , and enough rope, to hang themselves. to be humble enough, to turn the other cheek ,when injured, by a careless act, but wise enough ,to not let them, repeat the pattern.to not ,so much seek, to be loved ,as to be giving, endless love. to cherish friends, and see, each is unique ,and filled with value. to not label people ,nor judge ,it is so ,a act of hate. to never gossip, it is a cruel ,and hateful act ,and so beneath me. to be me, and let you, be you !who else could we be? to live life, like it was the last day, who knows? to look everyone, in the eyes, because thats where ,the truth is! most importantly, to carry love, in my heart ,and remember that, everybody hurts.

Limbo
A PLACE SO VAST, AND DEEP. TWISTS, TURNS, AND INDECISIONS.WHERE TO GO, WHERE TO LOOK. WALK, OR RUN.DEEP WITHIN YOUR HEART ,THE ANSWERS TRY ,TO REACH THE SURFACE, THE FEAR HOLDS THEM BACK. WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD? WHERES THE SUN,? THE WRONG TURN ,COULD BRING PAIN ,AND ETERNAL DARKNESS.THE DESIRE, TO SEE THE LIGHT, TO FIND THE PATH ,TO THE SUN. TO FEEL LIGHTHEARTED, TO UNDERSTAND SUCCESS.TO FIND THE MARKER, THAT LIGHTS THE WAY, TO HAPPINESS.,IS THERE A LESSON ,INVOLVED? A SMALL STEP, A GIANT LEAP, MOTIONLESS. STUMBLING THROUGH THE VOID, NO SENSATION TO BE TRUSTED. WHAT TO BELIEVE? ONE FOOT, IN FRONT OF THE OTHER, NO TOE WALKING . STEP AHEAD ,AS IF, YOU HAVE THE ANSWERS. HEAD UP, A SONG IN YOUR HEART ,A PURPOSE IN YOUR SOUL. SENSING THE LIGHT, FEELING THE POWER. LED BY A INNER PEACE, THAT TRANSCENDS ALL ELSE. SMILE ,FEEL FREE. FREEDOM WILL BE HEARD. A STEP ABOVE, THE FEAR THAT OCCUPIES YOUR BEING, AND TRIES TO SUFFERCATE, YOUR DREAMS. THE STRENGTH OF THE DRAGON ,WILL FILL YOUR BEING ,AND RAISE YOUR LEVEL OF CONFIDENCE. MOVING FORWARD , A POWER POSESSED. SEEK AND YOU WILL RECEIVE.

Blowing By
the winds of change, raising awareness
the rustle of a mysterious presence
a force of unwillingness, strong emotions
uncontroled, resistant, out of reach
changing strength, unfamilliar
bending, twisting, moaning
followed by a soft breeze
a whistle, a hum, a startling crash
sending chills over my body
aromas from a distant fire
a need for warmth
the trees bend ,almost to much
they bow to the mother earth
the waters ripple
the beauty of the secret passage
chimes sing, a exciting tune
leaves fly about ,torn from there source
where they land, to wither and die
a unkept branch ,rubs against my window
a sound of ominous ,dread
it brings a fear of tomorrow
as i lay here, in my bed
remembering ,the yesterdays
questioning today
deep thoughts of the future
the wind ,soon blows away

Fallen
i am here
ive decided to remain
no sense in traveling
to seek my heart
im tired of trying to move on
im here
now its someone elses turn
time to be sought
not for me to seek
i am here
weary and forlorn
alone and exhausted
untouched by the quest
broken , never to be mended
ready to lay down
and admit defeat
ready to accept my fate
unable to carry the load
the burden is to heavy
no rescue in sight
forever to be oppressed
forever to wonder why
i gave my all
i resisted the life set upon me
i yearned for happiness
im not happy
maybe they were right
a headstrong girl
never finds happiness
now im broken
now im lost
empty emotions
endless thoughts
no life
no love
no future
i am here
empty and withering away
i have held the angels
as life left thier eyes
i have commforted the fallen
as sadness consumed thier hearts
i am lost and forgotten
void of the basic need
i am here in this limbo
drained of love
i am here

The Quiet Garden...
where nothing grows
time has withered away
the whisper of the breeze
passing through the dry and empty
nonexistant growth
the rain falls on barren soil
the sun does not shine
no lush greens
only brown and rotted traces of what was
no life , the scent of nothingness
does anyone remember how it used to be?